My Dream

Kadang sendirinya masih suka bingung kalo ditanya cita citanya mau jadi apa. Tapi kalo gambaran nanti masa depannya mau seperti apa, itu pasti udah punya banget.

I want to live in Bali, in a secluded place, all by myself, and have peace. Not getting married, just paint, dance, paint, dance, and paint again. And maybe a little bit of fangirl.

Kenapa? It's not that I want to ngerepotin orang tua atau gak sayang sama orang tua. It's just that, I want to live in peace. Udah muak sama dunia yang semakin gak jelas ini, dan orang orangnya pun semakin muna. Saya sudah tidak tahan lagi dengan kehidupan yang membuat saya sedih.

Jadi anda mau jadi pelukis dan penari bali saja? Kuliah gak?
Well, rencana untuk kuliah pasti ada. Barulah setelah itu bisa merantau.

Tapi kalo ditanya guru, cita cita nya apa, ya yang hanya saya bisa jawab adalah "menjadi orang yang semakin bahagia di dunia dan akhirat"

Hahahahahaha

I'm Sorry

I am so sorry for my mistakes
I don't even know that it would turn out this way

I feel really really bad after i thought about it again

But there's one thing that you need to know

I am not here to give up
Because i love you when i can't even say that straight to you but i am trying to do it

Love you.

-K-

Brought Me To Life

Hi guys!

Another thing happened in my life. Like seriously, if I don't know A Pink, Shinee, Exo, or others I may be have gone now. I basically hate my life. Because there's something. Something's not good. Really really bad.

Loser Like Me

"Brothers are people whom we can go through hardships together and help each other." -Lay

He left. We have to accept that. And we have to support him. We have to support both sides.

Anyway....

I know what it feels like. It's like you have to break your friendship. And I know that's hurt. Life is not easy as you think it is. Life is hard. That's why there are a lot of people who committed suicide.

People who can endure the hardness of this life are the best people. Like seriously, I'm a person who could not endure the hardness. I prove it once. I failed once. I've hit the bottom.

When I failed to endure it, I feel like I'm a loser. I just want to die. I wrote it on my diary "Why am I alive? and why I can't do anything?" I've quit school for like... 3 or 4 months, I think? I quit because I can't endure the hardness.

I'm not like kpop idols who could endure the hardness of training, seniority, being mocked, etc.

Yes, I'm a loser. But I don't want this to happen again with you guys. So, don't be a loser like me. Just don't. ☺

-K-

Me

hiii I'm going to talk about me! yeay for you who doesnt know me ^^

first, I think I'm kinda introvert (a little). I'm kinda scared to meet or talk to new people. I always want to try but ended up not trying because I'm too scared. but, I love being on the stage. I've been doing some performances (eventhough it's only a mini performance) such as dancing. I love (literally obsessed with) glee (was) maybe not now (again) because the story now are kinda boring and doesn't match up which I think they're so random now... but still... I love their songs. ^^

for now, im kinda obsessed with kpop. from 2010/2011 I think... no one knows at that year. hahaha because I keep it secret (hm, guilty pleasure I think?) until I have bestfriends that like it too so I reveal it little by little from last year... 

my fav group? hm... first its khj (an alien. HAHA NO) then.. 2pm & miss A. and SHINee then A Pink, CN Blue, WINNER, and EXO. but my ultimate group is A Pink. (you can call me a panda then. bcs whenever people are talking about panda/apink im going to look at the people, LOL) if you ask me which one is my bias.. then I cannot. they (each person) are just different.

I think that's enough about me. I just want to share my story about me ^^

catch me on twitter: @kaykirana (fanacc) and @kiranakay (personal acc) ♡

-k-