I am so sorry for my mistakes
I don't even know that it would turn out this way
I feel really really bad after i thought about it again
But there's one thing that you need to know
I am not here to give up
Because i love you when i can't even say that straight to you but i am trying to do it
Love you.
-K-
I like this song by big baby driver so muchyyy!!
I basically love all of their songs. but this one is so me right now so I'm going to write the lyrics here.
"See my eyes are watching
hear my heartbeat is pounding
whatever i do wherever
i go it's for you
see my days without you
i feel no shame in crying
whatever it takes you know that
i'll be with you
now that i see the light
now that i touch my light
now that i realize all i ever wanted is only you
now that i see the light (and life)
now that i touch my light (and life)
now that i realize all i ever wanted is only you
now that i realize"
-K-
a bit of the english lyrics of Your Scent by Gary & Jung In. and.... this is so me right now.
"I like you so much because of your human scent
I’m even more attracted to your clumsy appearance
If I hesitate, I might lose you
So I’m going crazy
Just like the sky looking like the sky
Just like the wind feeling like the wind
Just the way you are
Not made up in any way
I’m falling for that beauty"
I really want to hold your hands so badly right now.
I miss your scent.
I miss how your eyes are looking straight at mine.
I miss the way you smile.
I'm craving for that scent of you.
-K-
"Brothers are people whom we can go through hardships together and help each other." -Lay
He left. We have to accept that. And we have to support him. We have to support both sides.
Anyway....
I know what it feels like. It's like you have to break your friendship. And I know that's hurt. Life is not easy as you think it is. Life is hard. That's why there are a lot of people who committed suicide.
People who can endure the hardness of this life are the best people. Like seriously, I'm a person who could not endure the hardness. I prove it once. I failed once. I've hit the bottom.
When I failed to endure it, I feel like I'm a loser. I just want to die. I wrote it on my diary "Why am I alive? and why I can't do anything?" I've quit school for like... 3 or 4 months, I think? I quit because I can't endure the hardness.
I'm not like kpop idols who could endure the hardness of training, seniority, being mocked, etc.
Yes, I'm a loser. But I don't want this to happen again with you guys. So, don't be a loser like me. Just don't. ☺
-K-
hiii I'm going to talk about me! yeay for you who doesnt know me ^^
first, I think I'm kinda introvert (a little). I'm kinda scared to meet or talk to new people. I always want to try but ended up not trying because I'm too scared. but, I love being on the stage. I've been doing some performances (eventhough it's only a mini performance) such as dancing. I love (literally obsessed with) glee (was) maybe not now (again) because the story now are kinda boring and doesn't match up which I think they're so random now... but still... I love their songs. ^^
for now, im kinda obsessed with kpop. from 2010/2011 I think... no one knows at that year. hahaha because I keep it secret (hm, guilty pleasure I think?) until I have bestfriends that like it too so I reveal it little by little from last year...
my fav group? hm... first its khj (an alien. HAHA NO) then.. 2pm & miss A. and SHINee then A Pink, CN Blue, WINNER, and EXO. but my ultimate group is A Pink. (you can call me a panda then. bcs whenever people are talking about panda/apink im going to look at the people, LOL) if you ask me which one is my bias.. then I cannot. they (each person) are just different.
I think that's enough about me. I just want to share my story about me ^^
catch me on twitter: @kaykirana (fanacc) and @kiranakay (personal acc) ♡
-k-
